My Life as Open Source

I took a 4 hours nap and that’s it. Today is totally wasted.

Tomorrow will be a nice day out. I hope.

又係喎，聖誕在何地過並不重要，重要的是同何人過，被一言點醒了。真係多謝晒！

到我們都喜愛的曙U吃個飯，看場戲。簡簡單單，反正出外要使錢，不如慳慳地在港消費。

希望如是說。

今日唔知醒起身搞到遲左九個字至現身，又無化妝又黑眼圈又粉刺，一副殘樣自己都眼冤。

其實我成日響度磨唔開心都無用架，經常在公司裡發放負能量唉聲嘆氣，同事M 說得對，既然將來發生的事係不可抗力無法改變，咪既來之則安之，煮好咪食囉！咁早諗只�|醞釀愁緒。是的，我承認想得太多，可是我又沒法子不去想。

不過哀莫大於拮据，要換個新的dvd drive 真係好肉赤，鬼叫壞左同自己先前縮水無續warranty 咩！真係自作孽咯！

快廿三了，忽覺光陰似箭歲月如梭唔再係十八廿二，想起廿歲時訂下的五年計畫，有些做到了，有些�|未成本搷V力付出，免得廿五歲時回望過去一遍空白，同事說我懷過份大志，係呀，人無理想同條鹹魚有乜分別！訂下目標都只係想日後對自己都有個起碼的交待。

阿聰公司今年凍薪，無辦法啦，宜家個市係點大家都有目共睹，我都唔敢奢望明年有人工加，唔裁員算執到！坉禶R我喇，三個禮拜別後重逢都唔覺我的頭髮染左第二隻色，吤H前都唔係咁架，我用了不同牌子的唇膏妘˙{出，宜家岒雈玟漶耤耤緆mm，自己唔係咁好意思同人呻訴，寫出來個人都舒服d。

回到港已有個幾禮拜，個心仍然念念不忘去過的地方，唉！又係自作孽！

原來27號出發的話個package 大概是1.8k，似乎一餅野台北自助遊有望，唔知阿聰到時請到假否?

回港後因為心情不好，連帶皮膚都變差，生了數粒粉刺，索性唔化妝返工，平時照鏡看見眼袋有點黑還以為是防水的mascara 溶化了，想不到今日我素臉一張，眼袋位仍是黑黑的，自己也忍不住失聲笑笑，以前還抱怨怎麼連防水的都不耐用，恍然大悟原來那個就是我的黑眼圈，唉！死未！

個dvd drive 要等兩個禮拜左右至有貨，未能聽著歌寫日記上網真是難受，本來可以用機聽的，可惜個插刮左成晚都屢尋不穫，我就發作喇！

最近看了幾個屬於八十年代初Depache Mode 出第一隻碟時才呱呱墜地的少年人的日記，現活於十多歲的反叛期，父母同學都好像不懂自己，學業和感情又遇上難題(覺得)沒法解決，我看著他們失落的日記，彷彿看著自己少年時期的倒影，沮喪又憤世。怎麼成長�|是這麼痛？還是自己當時想得太多？唔知Joyce 現在�|點諗？

今日心情持續麻麻，慘被工作壓垮 (~; ~)

好幾天無寫日記了。

其一，自dvd drive 宣佈無得救後，換parts 要二千三!!! 心情就一直得壞得很，放假經過見到GC 的大亂鬥出左，GC 連遊戲要兩千，非常恨玩。還有很想買果十隻Tofu，一想起個dvd drive 要換乜都得個恨字。

其二，原來聖誕台北價好貴，買package 同跟團一樣3k，兩條友去旅費雜費使費所有支出要成餅幾野，一d 都唔化算，結果去不成。

不過，昨夜同Zoe 食飯，除左講人壞話之外就係交換下近況啦，估唔到事隔幾個月後人事變遷，有人分了手，有人結了婚，有人被炒，有人升職。分了手那對拍拖多年，最後是因為第三者而分開。告知阿聰，慨嘆多年感情就此告吹。他說係呀咁妳嫁唔嫁我呀？唔嫁的話可能下場都係咁喎！仍是一句唔嫁回應。同Zoe 說起我有些中學同學已結婚生仔，妘ㄧ凗憭策落ㄖ皕|派帖比吽A小姐呀，邊有咁快呀，係都妳先啦！飯後我們例牌去買化妝品同睇衫，真係好鬼開心！我仲同吤瘣咫F生日禮物，我收到的是漂亮的髮夾，大家都說轉眼廿三歲了，真是歲月無情。

回到家後友人說搭到路換drive 只需1565，嘩！太好了，不過要等兩個禮拜左右。都好過無。

今日的心情都麻麻，主要是工作上所遇的問題構禍，唉！激死我了！眼看有些人與虎謀皮，我幫老虎打工都有點唔安樂。

Okay, I’m a grunge kid, Nirvana is my all time fave band when I first heard Come As You Are from radio. Guess it should explain why Kurt Cobain is my rock star boyfriend. Ha!

You and Kurt Cobain are a match made in heaven! You’re both very creative people, and have put your creative juices to the test writing music or the occasional painting. You love a guy that isn’t afraid to be himself, and both enjoy hanging out with good friends and checking out local bands.

Click the image to go take the test yourself.

看了Apocalypse Now Redux，唔知係咪坐在戲�|裡的關係，覺得比起原版好睇，The End 仍在腦裡響起，忍不住啍起它的歌詞。

終於都買左無印的和�|袋，經過game 鋪見到GC 的大亂鬥出左，結果成日心思思，如果唔係個dvd drive 瓜左要破費買過個新的我就可以買GC 啦！唉！真係乜都注定！

So my friend Cary came to fix my dvd drive this evening, and watching him open my iMac with his skillful hands is a lot of fun. I’ve never seen someone open it before. Anyway, he took the drive out and there is some parts inside falling out and stuck in the middle, that’s why the drive isn’t taking the disc as usual. He brough it to his home cuz I don’t have enuff tools for further investigation . It’s a bit strange that Sheeta is running without a dvd drive. Cary also told me that my iMac DVse had been put away and no longer made, it’s hard to order the same drive to replace it. Or I can buy CD-RW but I can’t watch dvd on it anymore. AW! I want my dvd drive back so bad!

Cary will call me tomo and let me know the result. Cross finger.