My Life as Open Source

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

三點才入睡,早上返工出奇地精神。不知不覺星期四了。Yay!

九月份出差到台北,忠孝東路走九遍,識正港台灣仔,聽後有些少興奮,隨即想起未能夠跟聰哥哥分享一切美食景點,有些沮喪又患得患失。sniff sniff. 走在十里洋場,北京長街,飲很滑的牛奶等等種種沒有您對於我一個人來說甚麼也是徒然的,走到那裡只|令我更想家更想香港。

想起某天早上,微風送爽,法國梧桐樹吹得沙沙發響,穿我最愛的白衣粉藍色裙子挽著公事包包,腳步輕快獨個兒走在上海鬧市街頭,扮個成它n看又有自信的打工女郎。一路上很寂寞,認識一個年輕的上海女孩,閒談間發覺獨生兒是很可憐的,除了爸媽外便沒有其他家人,n 年以後爸媽仙遊的話找個近親親人也沒有,家族裡親戚也|越來越少,最終獨個兒生活下去,很可怕。

最近夜晚聽著些傷人心的歌,A night like this 令我難以早睡。日日復日日,工作令人麻木。

收到Amazon的confirmation email 說我張radiohead 新專輯已於今日寄出,十幾日後|收到 Yay!

太耐無update 過softwares,一check 原來好多software 已出更新版,結果一搞搞左成晚。蘋果對用戶都算照顧得唔錯啦,免費upgrade。

過磅發覺重左兩磅,都怪出差時吃得太多,要節制下了。今日幾開心因為聰哥哥去左庸記買粽比我,不過要等到星期日先有得食。哈!bright up 很悶的一天。蘋果茶飲得太多,削胃,有些不適。

整天哼著 Love Street - The Doors

She lives on Love Street
Lingers long on Love Street
She has a house and garden
I would like to see what happens

She has robes and she has monkeys
Lazy diamond studded flunkies
She has wisdom and knows what to do
She has me and she has you

She has wisdom and knows what to do
She has me and she has you

I see you live on Love Street
There’s this store where the creatures meet
I wonder what they do in there
Summer Sunday and a year
I guess I like it fine, so far

She lives on Love Street
Lingers long on Love Street
She has a house and garden
I would like to see what happens

La, la, la, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la, la, la

近兩年靠聽Smashing Pumpkins 的Machina, Radiohead 的 Kid A 吊命維生。為了Radiohead 的新專輯,要破例一次訂隻給自己,一隻送給老Joyce,oh are you reading it Joyce?

今天心情不好,思念cassette tape 不斷重播重播重播。是因為昨晚聽著很sad 的歌入睡!﹖

My heart is aching.

Rotten Apple - Smashing Pumpkins

Dirty your face with longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart and love her when your love goes unrequited

Where the cool winds blow I must surely go
For my love calls me lo to drag her from the depths of my soul
When will I see her again?
The other side of friends
The darkened clouds of death
The empty-breathed desire

Dirty your face with longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart and love her when your love goes unrequited

Restless in my speech
And ruthless in my teach
So vacant in my breach,
I drive the dirt of her garden
Sorrow
She’ll never listen again
No other lovers to bend
Just rotten apples to eat
Slathered yellow distant scorn

Dirty your face with longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart and love her when your love goes unrequited

Life just fades away
Purity just begs
Dust to dust we’re wired into sadness

早上拉開抽屜傳出陣陣幽香,啊,原來係枝Magnolia Hand Lotion。

昨天買的蘋果茶葉,沖了杯試試,錫蘭茶果香撲鼻,不過飲落無乜茶味。

原來茶葉存貨之多足夠我飲用半年,台灣高山茶,甘菊花茶,桂花烏龍茶,綠茶,果茶,蘋果茶,Vanilla Tea,靜岡煎茶。忙裡偷閒,嘆茶最正。

今日有些事想寫,又忘了。係乜呢﹖大概是無關痛養的事吧!﹖

Age of Innocence - Smashing Pumpkins

we dismiss
the backroads
and ride these streets
unafraid
resort to
scraping paint
from our bones
unashamed

no more the eye upon you
no more the simple man

desolation yes
hesitation no
desolation yes
hesitation no
as you might have guessed
all is never shown
desolation yes
hesitation no

and in my prayers
i dream alone
a silent speach
to deaf ear if you want love
you must be love
but if bleed love
you will die loved

no more the lie upon you
cast in stone the autumn shade

desolation yes
hesitation no
desolation yes
hesitation no
as you might have sensed
we won’t make it home
desolation yes
hesitation no

before the rites of spring
come to mean all things
a little taste of what may come
a mere glimpse of what has gone

cause for the moment we are free
we seek to bind our release
too young to die, too rich to care
too fucked to swear that i was there

desolation yes
hesitation no
desolation yes
hesitation no
as you might have guessed
we won’t make it home
desolation yes
hesitation no

沙田的路程不遠,兩個人在車箱內說著笑著轉眼就到。去無印,跟阿妹所說一樣,貨架空空,人頭湧湧。我們是為了內衣褲而來的,可是心目中的款式只剩下加大碼,化妝品賣光了,唯有買零食,太多人在我身邊轉來轉去,看得我頭昏眼花,不作他想決定甚麼東西也買一包算了,反正老遠來到,免得空手而回有遺恨。選好了茶葉便乖乖付款。特別買了罐蘋果茶,味道一般。

經過莎莎順道補給些日用品,去旅行社拿了些歐遊資料參考,商場內人很多,面前的人山人海加上五光十色的商店足以令我不知方向迷迷糊糊地走著,突然對時下的 deconstruction tee 有興趣,可是穿這些爛衫一定要內穿tube top 打底,坦蕩蕩露棚骨出來獻世|嚇跑街坊,還是算了。

回到同樣多人的銅鑼灣,到糖街走個轉,忍著唔買雜誌,上Pro Shop 看閃光燈,我們分別問了兩個Sales 一樣的問題可是得出不同答案,係兼容定唔兼容呢,真係一個迷。帶著迷團吃過飯後上二樓鋪睇波鞋,看中了反光布料老cons 白飯魚,價錢跟Presto 相約。急急腳去銀座哥哥的店鋪看看,偏偏沒有,因為那雙老cons 挑起我買白飯魚的慾望,便買了老vans 白底紅花白飯魚頂替,回到家差不多夠鐘開波,羅馬 Vs 拿玻里,睇波吃零食,才發現買了釵h無厘頭的東東,例如炸蘋果片,炸什菜,梅味的炸物和糖。無論係拿玻里定羅馬入波也好我們也興奮尖叫,當2:2 時鏡頭影到有個羅馬的球迷在痛哭,真係唔到你唔服。

阿聰要看下場拉素,是夜獨個兒回家,抱著大包小包。財散人安樂,今個月要安分守己。

We’ve a lot of serious talking before sleep, 絮絮不休旅行啦結婚啦買樓啦,我睇多兩屆世界盃後才有結婚打算,如果真係咁幸運到時我們已拍了七年拖,七。。。。七年喎,等我們一起睇完今屆先算啦。經過旅行社,意大利德國瑞士八天遊餅幾搞掂。頭尾兩天玩搭飛機,即係話平均兩日一個國家,下咁好辛苦囉!﹖不如淨係去意大利好了,我們要去拉素總部大門口影相。臨睡前總是�|討論這些嚴肅話題,異常吃力。

星期六看了Someone Like You,吃過飯後去Blockbuster 租碟,我想翻抄Indiana Jones,但係又搵唔到,唔知點解近期真係好想睇驚險刺激的好戲。走去吉之島買甜品,終於買了好貴的雪印Pudding(唔好味架原來!)同 Tiramisu 雪�|。

我想買個夏天手袋呀但又無心水。碰上了心水紅白花裙,可惜size 8 已經是最小號,那條花裙太美,我恨我不是size 8。size 8 的女人有福了。每次遇上不可遇上的衣服,自己的尺碼總是賣光,每次都恨自己為何不是size 8, size 10。

好奇心驅使下我trace back security record 知道他的名字,甚麼時候上班下班,在record 裡還找到他的簽名,我甚至乎注意他這幾天穿甚麼顏色衣服其實我至係真正暗戀人同變態果個。哈哈!

這又想起網友Yoshiki,自從壞腦搬屋買左sheeta 上網後便跟Yoshiki失去聯絡,再找也找不到我認識的那個,真是可惜,雖然與他素未謀面,大家都唔清楚對方係乜人,但係我十分喜歡跟他互傳 message,he’s such a good friend and we’ve a lot in common.

午後又發生了件耐人尋味的事,真係夠匪夷所思。

明天終於有拖拍,I can’t hardly wait. 要敷個面膜,早早睡個好覺。