My Life as Open Source

This week everyone’s talking about HK’s biggest “cop kills cop”crime news in a decade:

Last Friday, a thug who planned to rob a pistol or two from police for his own use (!) had a fierce shootout with two beatcops inside a pedestrian tunnel; in the struggle he killed one cop and heavily wounded the other, but the first cop shot the thug 5 times in the chest killing the thug instantly before he died a hero himself.

Now the biggest catch: the thug was an off-duty COP himself and he possessed and used the gun of another cop he killed 5 years ago – it was a shocking unsolved murder until now. That same year, he put on a mask and used same gun to rob a bank and killed a Pakistano security guard, the case was again unsolved.The outrageous thing is, in between these two crimes in 2001, this guy went on TV’s Millionaire game show with his wife and won HK$60,000! And he was even on news footage before as a protester in a high profile HK democracy parade in 2004. He seemed to love the camera and media coverage. There will be books written about the “devil cop”(as crowned by media) for years to come, his wish somehow fulfilled.

You can count on this as one of Top Ten HK News this year 2006. KCR another one.

I think I felt the baby move last night when I am trying to sleep, it was something that felt like a throbbing, like butterfiles moving inside the bump, this feelng was in the center of my lower abdomen. It was slight and couldn’t be felt outside.

Until the baby starts moving, I didn’t really “feel” pregnant, now it started moving, I’m feeling more pregnant. It’s just that I cant get enough of that wonderful feeling that I’m really and truly growing a child in there! It is all so very exciting.

I’m taking folic acid as per my docotor. Pregnancy is tiring and sickening, it is the real energy drainer, I feel crappy, lumpy and ungainly. Less than 10 hours sleep a day was too little for me, maybe I’m just so damned tired, I have been experiencing some depression, making it hard for me to start the day, I hate morning so bad now.

I have never had this kind of illness before, althought my doctor said that pregnacy does not cause depression, merely unmasks it. Pregesterone and estrogen are known to have depression side effects and there sure is a lot of progesterone and estrogen running around.

Anyway, on Wednesday I will have OSCAR checkup, an ultrasound scanning and a blood test for Down’s Syndrome, let’s hope all will go well.

I’m thrilled to be able to announce that I’m pregnant, Derek and I are joyfully expecting a baby due in 24 July. I had my second prenatal appointment the day before yesterday and everything went great! When the doctor listened with a Doppler, he immediately found a strong, loud heartbeat (160 bpm). That’s my daughter or my son in there. That’s my baby. Wow.

Okay, here goes:

What is this Dawn Yang’s plastic surgery scandal? She topped techorati search recently.

This is interesting, as I’ve always been pro-surgery, generally, if it makes you feel better about yourself, then plastic surgery is not a bad option. Why is she getting so much attention? Denying that she had had extensive plastic surgery? I just don’t get it. C’mon, who would like to admit having undergone the knife? Even Michael Jackson’s upper lip to collapse inward like that, bigger eyes and straight nose, he claims to have had his nose done and just once at that.

Further reading: Electric New Paper interview

Technorati:dawn

Life has been rollercaster for me since last week, the best news is now you all know.

However, life changes. It doesn’t matter how you try to make things stay the same, they change because they have to, because they want to. If a friendship ends because the two of us realize that we have grown apart and have developed irreconcilable differences, then I grieve knowing that the former friend and I reached and understanding and terminated our relationship for the best. I take comfort in remembering the great things about the relationship and what it gave me, and how I earned from it.

But, if I give my trust to someone and that someone stopped talking to me without any explanation, then I’m like floundering around, not knowing what direction to take off on. A friend whom I had only known for 6 months stopped affiliating with me in all ways. I tried to get him to talk with me. But he never ever responded to me. It was sad to me and left me feeling betrayed.

I am fortunate to have friends who have stood by me and given me spiritual support. Betrayal hurts. All l I can do is see the betrayal is a disclosure of his true character he brings upon himself, not me.

So, Sam Wong, if you’re reading, I tip my hat to you and remind you that you owe MacGrass’s files. You shut us down without notice and yet still act like you’re innocent. I’m writing this in English, because all the world must know that you are a major jerk.