I don’t have any reasons to update recently. Blah blah blah. Oh, 山之巨人 is being delayed. No way! I’m in a big hurry to get it.
Reading Chainsaw’s diary makes me think “How to keep a functional relationship?”
It’s sucha jumble of feelings. I don’t want to talk much about the future yet - I don’t see Derek much, absence makes the heart grow fonder. I don’t call him in weekdays. The more calls I make I’ll attach myself to him. Every time when we’re having fun, I think, “I can live on by myself if we break up.” That’s such a terrible, morbid thought - I know it is, but it’s really a method of Love/Self preservation. And we’ve been going out for 3 years….it works!
This week is going by fast. But still my life is incredibly dreary and dull.
I hope everyone have a great weekend!
